Wednesday, May 1, 2013

December 14, 2012

Look what I found in my drafts. Well, we're on our way up. Still got some progress to make though. This is why writing is good; personal reflection.

I'm still not used to this.

I'll admit it. I just don't get it yet.
I guess going on a three week vacation a week after coming home and not getting a cell-phone for about a month after that contributed, but I still don't know what to do with my time.

No matter how many times I rearrange my class schedule for school next semester, I have knots in my stomach over it and I feel like I'm doing it wrong. I've seeked out advice here and there, but mostly I'm too lazy/too scared of my awkward self to do it. Is that embarrassing? Yeah. Is it reality? Sadly, yes.

I have this huge longing to be around old high school, college, and mission friends...but limited means to do so and an even weaker drive to do so. I think these are the horror stories you hear about coming home. And I remember being so adamant about not being "that guy" "that returned-missionary" but here we are.
 Ok, that's silly. I'm in control of my life; I can help it. I'm just...not. I hope school keeps me busy enough to have drive and purpose to do something with my life, heck, my time for that matter. I can't remember the last time I had this much free-time and I'm really ready to be done with it.
HECK. Even looking back, I was much much better at this blogging junk back when I was in class, rehearsal, or performance from 8AM to 11PM pretty much everyday in college. 
I'd give myself a failing grade for this little chapter of my life, but it's only up from here, right? 
And on that note I think I'll go play Dance Central until I go to Disneyland next week. Battle me suckas! Oh wait... 
These are the kind of posts I see on other blogs and want to punch a cow over.

I think this will just sit in my drafts. Maybe I'll have the courage to post it tomorrow.










それじゃ来週ディズ二ーランドに行くまで Dance Central をやろうかな。かかってこい!



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